Frustrated
The mind-body connection is amazing. Sometimes it isn't so fun though. It boggles my mind. Yesterday I was sort of anticipating something, but not really consciously. My body however, took that anticipation and used it. I was like a zombie at work. I had trouble shaking the lost/blank feeling. This has happened a few other times and it is usually about something serious in my life. Over the last few months our family has been drug down by church "crap." Sorry, that is the only word that seems to cover the ridiculous, sad and spiritual abuse. Anywho... For the first week or so, every time it was discussed or alluded to I started to become nauseous and had headaches. My body was just as upset and hurt by the happenings as my mind. My older brother had a heart-attack at 26. I was away at some training while they were trying to get a grip on the why's. He had several angio-things. The days that he did, I was either like a zombie or felt ill. I wasn't worrying that I c