Control
I'm sharing this song by JJ Heller. It was written about a girl who was physically hurting herself as means of control. The words have hit me hard and really do pertain, even though my control is mental and the scars aren't physical. I find myself holding tightly to "control." I'm 27 and I desire to be married and have children. I've desired it for as long as I can remember. It plagues me so often, in nearly every thought of some days. I hate that a good thing becomes so strong against my mental well being. Letting go is a constant battle. I release the need for control only to have it creep back into my thinking. Thoughts are hard to reign in. Only with the Lord's help. His scars are what allows me to lay my need for control at His feet. I spent 4 days away from home (and in the sun of Arizona) with a dear friend. It was amazing what being away did for me. The pressure was lifted and I was able to feel relief. Thank you, Lord! His timing is so powerful an