--2 Corinthians 12:9 God amazes me. He alone can change my heart and turn it to himself. I was "stuck" with an attachment to a young man. I had prayed and asked God to take that from me, remove the desire. He didn't simply take it away. First, he made me realize that I must step out in faith...stop thinking about him, stop watching for him at work, stop and let go. These things had become a habit. I had to "train" my brain to stop when it headed down that road. Praise the Lord, for he is faithful!
"But in all these things we have full victory through God who showed his love for us." --Romans 8:37
So a few days after my marriage/future/waiting post God helped me see something. I was able to encourage a friend in an important way. It made me think. Perhaps that was God's purpose for me, that I would be there at this point in her life to encourage her and point her to Him. The thoughts kept rolling and with them came peace. I sometimes wonder what the point in being here is...but it comes from fallacy. I may simply be on this earth to encourage those God puts in my path. I may simply be on this earth to love the children God puts in my path. My purpose on earth is not about me, not about me, not about me. God has not promised marriage and children and that should not be my goal. It is not my goal.